Hello world.

This will be my personal diary, where people can see my thoughts. Where I can write what im thinking. Not all that fancy.

About Me ^^

I am a teenager in school that has many interest. Maybe too many lol. I really enjoy making art, music (many types) :), cleaning my room, my interest, dolls, anime, books, writing, & playing games!! Its pretty simple, or not, I dont know- im just a person on the internet. I try my best to be a good person and be nice to people.

MY INTEREST!!!

theres alot more, but im too lazy to type more...

DIARY ENTRY #1

11/17/25

7:58 PM

My dearest diary, today I wore a really cute outfit to school. It had lots of ruffles on it and pink, I like dressing cute. In my opinion, I thought it looked nice but a kid I dont like (and is mean) said it looks like I was wearing a maid dress. He also laughed at me- I ignored it but it made me embaressed. Math class (2nd) is where most of the mean kids are in so... yeah. Then me and my friends in ELA (3rd) where being dumb. Which is suprising since we are at the front of the class, but it made me laugh hehe ^^. After that it was pretty boring, I was really tired during science class..(4th) so when the bell rang for lunch; I went to go sit with friends and not really talk. But I love them cause they know when im tired lol. I guess im that sleepy all the time for them to notice... Then me and my friends hanged outside of the cafteria and... while I was laying on my friends legs (dont ask why its normal) I started crying. I didnt stop myself because ive told myself that crying is a good way to let emotions out. They didnt know I was crying though, they thought I was sleeping. Crying feels nice though (-v-*).

The reason why I was crying was honestly kind of dumb though... but I can understand why it was sad to me. Ive been nonstop crying since yesterday.. I guess im realizing how fragile I truly am.| Anyways, I guess thats all for now. The time is 10:13 and I need to get going; its dark outside... Goodbye friends!!~(>.<~)

DIARY ENTRY #2

11/18/25

8:09 am

My dear diary, im in class right now, school just started.. Im gonna do testing soon for math- the schedule today is gonna be weird but thats ok!! Uh..the teacher upt on spongebob (movie)- this is pretty silly lol.

2:40

Dear diary, sometimes I just feel tired with the fact that- nevermind. But anyways, im in my last period right now. Theres new drama between my friends and honestly I cant keep up anymore because like what the fuck do you mean you hate them now? Im just really dissapointed with one of my friends, seriously. Now she likes someone who she hated and even did her wrong and defending them- and now hating a friends thats really nice and HAS THE RIGHT to be angry!!! Just because someone doesnt agree with you doesnt mean you should hate them, its cruel. It only depends what theyre disagreeing about. In this case, its a stupid reason to be mad at someone... Besides, the person the friend im dissapointed in is defending a BAD PERSON!! My other friend has every RIGHT to be mad at the bad person and friend... posting there text without consent on the internet- This whole situation is just stupid and soon im gonna talk some sense into em,im not gonna say that and not do it. Im gonna fucking do it. Cause this? No, its riduculous and I am not gonna have 2 people hate eachother when its not needed at all. But if the bad friend decides to stay with the bad person then boo-hoo I guess. NOT MY PROBLEM. Besides that though, just because of everying; living.. is because im angry. Its come to a point where so much has happened and am just losing it. Ive been sad because of everything, and now im just angry at everything. I dont want to be seperated with people that I enjoy because of some stupid fucking drama that isnt even worth anyones time. I like these people, but the drama slowly pulling them away; its making me very dissapointed.

Sometimes, I just wanna be alone in a field, or my room, with just myself and my two best best friends. Layna and Sorbet.. I just want to be with them forever and completely forget about everything else and forget being sad. I just want to be normal. I dont want to feel sad, mad, empty, every single day. Its exausting and I cant do it. I cant do anything anymore and I dont know if can live anymore. Im a teenager and st this point im just trying to fucking survive, it doesnt feel like hanging out with friends anymore. It feels like trying to babysit tiny children.

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7:48 PM

To my dearest diary, I forget what I think is right and wrong. But now im mad at the friend. I want to tell him something nicely because whats the point of yelling.. But tommorow im probably gonna have a talk with them, if they get mad then its a lost cause. I feel like im the only person who is gonna confront them because idk- people wont put her in her place. Besides that though, cause I want to stop talking about it. Ive felt really alone recently. I just want human connection but it feels like its getting to the point where im desperate. Cause I am, im slowly isolating myself but I really want to keep on chatting with my friends but I just feel like im annoying. Im usually social but its kinda getting to the point where I feel like im too social and I just start isolating myself again. I wonder if anyone would notice if I just stopped talking. I fear that one day I will lost my cool and instead of taking things nicely, I will snap and hurt them. Just a thought... I want to cry again but ive dropped so many tears my bottle is now empty. All I can do now is stare blanky at my sorrow, whats been done to me. Its honestly kind of sad, but being sad is all ive been able to feel for the past weeks, maybe even 14 months.. Ive never felt the same happiness I once had after I met her. I hated her, but now I dont worry about her.

I hate mirrors. I hate looking at my body and my pathetic face when I stare endlessly at one. After the incident recently, looking at a mirror has been hard for me. When I showered yesterday for school, it was the most hardest/ worst shower ive done in a long time. Thats sad but its true. I hate..love. Its ruined me so much times I might aswell become aroace. I have no interest in anyone anymore and I never will for a long time.

DIARY ENTRY #3

11:19 am

I got more updates on the the drama. Apperently The bad person is not liking me because im ignoring the friend thats defending them. Its not my fault that I need to process what just happened and NOT talk to them to fully process it.